7 days ago was our 4th dating anniversary.
I never thought that I could be someone’s girlfriend for that long. I used to think that a relationship became so boring when all the initial excitements had vanished. When the butterflies were all gone and the overwhelming feeling of always missing my boyfriend had subsided. When calling him would not make my heart beats faster. When waiting for his text was not so frustrating yet exciting anymore.
When love… just didn’t feel so passionate anymore.
Yet, being your girlfriend for so long doesn’t bore me.
Last week when I’m with my mom and I’m just reading japanese manga the whole day, she asked me, “How do you spend your quality time with Taz if you keep reading manga all day long?”
I look up from my manga and thinking for a bit then said, “Well.. If I’m reading then he will be watching TV or playing games. But we do it by sitting next to each other, sometimes we’re holding hands while doing it. Other times our legs will be entwined. Or he will caress me if he’s watching TV. That way we realize each other’s presence. And that’s definitely fine and enjoyable for both of us.”
My mom frowned. She might think we are weird. Others might think so, too.
But that weirdness probably is the reason why I haven’t feel bored yet. I love being weird with you.
I can’t tell you how many people who frowned or looking at me with disbelief when I told them that our favorite TV show was everything on Nat Geo Wild. That channel is boring for a lot of people, yet we enjoy it a lot.
Funny to see how our relationship is not boring even though we like to do ‘boring’ activities like that. 😀
I guess… you’re just like my comfortable bolster. People might think our way of spending time is boring, but I hug you with familiarity, I kiss you with tons of love, and I feel like I will be lost without you. I feel at ease the most when I have you with me. I can’t sleep well without you.
Whether I’m reading, watching DVD, playing games, or doing any kind of my own things, I feel like it would be better if I know you are near me. Even though you’re busy on your own too.
That boring comfort zone, oddly, doesn’t bore me.
As I used to tell you, I don’t know for how long will I still keep loving you passionately.
But know this, even though those sparks of passionate love might fade, our boring activities will bring our hands to hold each other again.
And as we always do, we will be looking at each other with a smirk, raising our eyebrows without any exchange of words and smile lovingly while our hands hold each other tighter.
That weird us…
..is probably why I’m still with you with insatiable need to love and to be loved. 🙂
Happy 4th dating anniversary, love.
100 days from today will be our big day to start a new journey with a new status.
And from that day, let’s live 100 boring yet comfortable and loving years together.